Feeling really confused right now. I got values and beliefs that I think is right, but should I do the right thing, or do what makes me feel good at the time? For example, I split the things I do in two categories, things that's evolving me, like getting better at playing guitar or socialize for example , and things I do that that isn't evolving me, like playing computer games. I see category nr1 as the only category that should be used, but does it make me happy? I have started to realize, that I care about everything exept my happiness.
I think my values has a negative effect on my happiness too. For example, I REALLY dont't think there's such a thing as a person who actually wants anything bad(evil), and that makes me really confused when someone does something mean to me (or anyone else), cause then I don't allow myself to be angry at or dislike that person, and when I get angry I get angry at myself too, because my belief about the human mind, makes it wrong to be angry at a person:/ I could babble about this in infinity, but I think I made my point clear. It's kinde hard to like myself with the thoughts that I have.